I can't even remember my name

I've written thoughts I'll never say aloud, unsung lyrics to a silent song.
I hold my breath for fear that I'll cry; to stop the rain pouring from my eyes.
My stomach's filled with butterflies, and I don't know why.
I'm nervous for something to crash into my life.
My paranoid mind won't halt the thoughts racing through my head,
And I'm terrified that I'll regret all the things I've  left unsaid.

I'm a forgettable figure, I'm a forgettable face.
A forgotten nothing, unforgivable disgrace.
And I'm worth nothing, I can't even remember my name.
I look in mirror and see a stranger in my place.

I yearn to be someone beautiful and kind who's not ignored and thrust aside.
I used to smile but knew it didn't reach my eyes so I practiced til I was satisfied.
My stomach's filled with butterflies, and I don't know why.
I'm waiting for something to crash into my life.
My paranoid mind won't halt the thoughts racing through my head,
And I know that I'll regret all the things I've left unsaid.

I'm a forgettable figure, I'm a forgettable face.
A forgotten nothing, unforgivable disgrace.
And I'm worth nothing, I can't even remember my name.
I look in the mirror and see a stranger in my place.

I wish that I could be a child running through the field
with not a care in the world, dandelions at my heels.
But when I was young, the grass itched my feet,
and I cried and wished that I wasn't me.
And here I am, letting hope fall from my hands
Because it's always been this way and people never change.