my day was okay (other than me being a pig, of course), and i got a lot of cool gifts. my favorite was the tote that my mom picked out for me; it's from fossil and has birds on it.
but all of the christmas joy was just sapped out of me about five minutes ago when my dad essentially called me fat. i asked if there were chocolate chips left, as he reached for a handful, and he said that there were but that they're fattening. so i commented that he was eating them, and he informed me that that was because he was skinny.
so i left and am in my room now. if nothing else gives me motivation then surely one of my parents indirectly hinting that i'm a cow should.
merry fucking christmas.
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Magic Pounds
You know that feeling when you've been the same size or same weight for a while and the fantastic high you had from losing weight turns into a sudden depression from not losing more weight? Yeah, I have that. My mind just can't wrap around the possibility that I'm the same size. To me, it's like if I haven't lost weight then I must have gained it. Because it's just not physically possible to not move either way. Despite the fact that all of my clothes still fit, I swear I've turned into a whale.
I even went shopping with my mom today, who insisted that I try on some dresses since I don't have many. I'm a sucker for Calvin Klein, and the clothes usually work for me (especially the sweater dresses) so I tried on piles of dresses...none really fit. There was a sweater dress that was adorable with these long sleeves and cozy feel, but I didn't buy it. And there was an adorable red dress that flared out a little bit at the hips and had some cool pleating, but it had one major problem: it was sleeveless. And while my mom just thinks I'm self conscious of my arms (which I am), I know that I can't buy a dress like that unless I always wear a blazer or sweater because of some sketchy, um, marks that litter my arms. All of the other dresses were a bust because of the major problem with my body...aka my ass. Sure, a bubble butt can be nice and an hourglass figure is great and everything, but I swear that no clothes are actually made for it. Clothes that fit my butt are huge everywhere else. I tried on a size 4 dress, and it was actually too big except for (can you guess?)..my ass. It's just so frustrating because no matter what I put on could be dubbed too sexy because of how it curves around my rear end, and it severely cuts down on my selection of apparel. Hence why I don't own many dresses or any skirts, for that matter.
So I would like to ask designers why the hourglass figure is supposedly the "ideal" shape when they don't actually make clothes for it? Because my bubble butt, little waist, and D cups don't fit into anything. Nothing is made with those proportions. If anyone knows of a brand that has dresses or skirts that cater well to such a thing, please don't hesitate to let me know.
I even went shopping with my mom today, who insisted that I try on some dresses since I don't have many. I'm a sucker for Calvin Klein, and the clothes usually work for me (especially the sweater dresses) so I tried on piles of dresses...none really fit. There was a sweater dress that was adorable with these long sleeves and cozy feel, but I didn't buy it. And there was an adorable red dress that flared out a little bit at the hips and had some cool pleating, but it had one major problem: it was sleeveless. And while my mom just thinks I'm self conscious of my arms (which I am), I know that I can't buy a dress like that unless I always wear a blazer or sweater because of some sketchy, um, marks that litter my arms. All of the other dresses were a bust because of the major problem with my body...aka my ass. Sure, a bubble butt can be nice and an hourglass figure is great and everything, but I swear that no clothes are actually made for it. Clothes that fit my butt are huge everywhere else. I tried on a size 4 dress, and it was actually too big except for (can you guess?)..my ass. It's just so frustrating because no matter what I put on could be dubbed too sexy because of how it curves around my rear end, and it severely cuts down on my selection of apparel. Hence why I don't own many dresses or any skirts, for that matter.
So I would like to ask designers why the hourglass figure is supposedly the "ideal" shape when they don't actually make clothes for it? Because my bubble butt, little waist, and D cups don't fit into anything. Nothing is made with those proportions. If anyone knows of a brand that has dresses or skirts that cater well to such a thing, please don't hesitate to let me know.
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