Run

I keep meaning to write real words, but my actions inspire songs instead. So I wrote this literally in 5 minutes, just a few minutes ago actually. I think my mind just thinks in lyrics these days.

Perhaps one day someone will sing them for me, if they're brave enough to sing them on a thousand TVs. 
Because I'm not meant to be stuck in the light, and the gleaming of the screen just wasn't meant for me.

Lyrics:

I cut myself to know I'm alive.
A mindless act to pass the time.
I see red running down  my side,
and I think, Is that mine? Is that mine?

I drown myself in layers so I can disguise myself.
I dye my hair so I could hide from those who know my name.
But I can only run so far before I'm out of breath.
And no matter how far I go, I end up back from where I came.

So I'll run in circles and I'll run in circles.
And I'll run in the dark and I'll run in the dark.
And I'll hide from you and I'll hide from me.
And I'll close my eyes and pretend it's all a dream.

I blink, squeeze, and shut my eyes.
Wishing I could sleep, wishing I could die.
But it's not my time; it's not my time.
And I think, when is mine? When is mine?

I drown myself in layers so I can disguise myself.
I dye my hair so I could hide from those who know my name.
But I can only run so far before I'm out of breath.
And no matter how far I go, I end up back from where I came.

So I'll run in circles and I'll run in circles.
And I'll run in the dark and I'll run in the dark.
And I'll hide from you and I'll hide from me.
And I'll close my eyes and pretend it's all a dream.

I've fallen and I can't get up; I guess my feet have finally had enough.
And my mind is screaming for me legs to pick me up,
but I'm disconnected and senseless and numb.
I've fallen and I can't get up; I guess my feet have finally had enough.
And my mind is screaming for me legs to pick me up,
but I'm disconnected and senseless and numb.

But I'll try and I will

Run in circles and I'll run in circles.
And I'll run in the dark and I'll run in the dark.
And I'll hide from you and I'll hide from me.
And I'll close my eyes and pretend it's all a dream.

So I'll run in circles and I'll run in circles.
And I'll run in the dark and I'll run in the dark.
And I'll hide from you and I'll hide from me.
And I'll close my eyes and pretend it's all a dream.