Saturday, August 7, 2010


Okay, this is going to be relatively short because I never went to bed last night, am in desperate need of coffee, and am only writing this while my hair is still in hot rollers.  But I have some good news.  I had a date last week!  It went really well, and I know the guy likes me...unfortunately, I know it isn't going to work out because he is a very happy person and I am...well, not.  I pretend to be, but once people get too close they start to get that revelation that I may not be what I seem.  That's why I keep people so far away and don't trust anyone, but if you're dating someone, how far can you really keep them?  I don't want to jump the gun here, though, because I'm probably just going to jinx it now anyway.

Moving on, today, I'm taking my insomniac self to study at a coffee shop.  Last night, while I couldn't sleep, I preoccupied myself by taking a moonlight stroll, several long drives, and watching the sunrise.  Despite my efforts to sleep, it simply failed me.  Of course, I'm aware that lack of eating yields insomnia, so if I keep not eating today then I won't as tired as I am now...but I will be crazier...and skinnier...oh the choices.  Naturally, I'd rather be somewhat disturbed and thin.

I'll update better tomorrow when I'm slightly more rested.  Who knows when I'll go to bed today...if...

1 comment:

  1. I feel like if this works out, his happiness will rub off on you. Or he wont mind your random depressing times, and try to make you the happiest you can be.
    And the other night I went to bed at like 4:30 and had to wake up at seven. DX
    How'd the fast go? I lost my phone again..... for like the second time this week. I am loosing my mind here.

    Enough with my rambles, I really hope this relationship will work out.!!!
    I miss talking to you, I need to find my phone soon!
    Kay, I'm going to go listen to your playlist now. <3

    Stay thin