I fucked up again today :(
Binged and purged three times, only slight cutting, and am still awake even though I get up in three hours. But I'm too afraid to go to bed again because I feel so damn guilty and am worried about waking up tomorrow and being excessively roll y poll y. I really need to stop punishing myself by not allowing sleep because when you sleep you can't eat...and I think it boosts your metabolism.
Anyway, I just thought I'd toss in a short post of my thoughts before going to pack up to go home tomorrow (or rather, in several hours)...and I want to clean my apartment, too. I think that will get my mind off of things, and I only work until noon tomorrow and then can take a nap or something. Ugh, misery.
Seriously, why do I fuck myself over like this? *Irritated*
Sorry about the binges, I had 2 yesterday and I didn´t purged the second(kill me now)
ReplyDeleteYou really should get some sleep sweetie, it does slow down your metabolysm not sleeping and besides it´s a horrible way to punish yourself.
Hope your day goes well
xx
Hope today is a better day! I know your pain.
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