I fucked up again today :(
Binged and purged three times, only slight cutting, and am still awake even though I get up in three hours. But I'm too afraid to go to bed again because I feel so damn guilty and am worried about waking up tomorrow and being excessively roll y poll y. I really need to stop punishing myself by not allowing sleep because when you sleep you can't eat...and I think it boosts your metabolism.
Anyway, I just thought I'd toss in a short post of my thoughts before going to pack up to go home tomorrow (or rather, in several hours)...and I want to clean my apartment, too. I think that will get my mind off of things, and I only work until noon tomorrow and then can take a nap or something. Ugh, misery.
Seriously, why do I fuck myself over like this? *Irritated*