It's been killing me lately to watch my little brother. He's in high school and going through all the typical drama of cliques, dumb friends, petty fights, the works, and I hate seeing him so upset all the time. I stayed home or New Years and watched movies with him, which was relaxing, but I could tell he was disappointed that his plans fell through. He feels like no one likes him and is never invited to parties, but from my perspective, he has a good group of friends and seems pretty social. But the problem is that it doesn't matter what I tell him or what the reality is because it's really what's going on in his mind that counts.
I wanted to tell him that people are stupid and selfish, and that's why I don't have any close friends (but he doesn't know that). People never fail to disappoint me, which is why I just assume plans are going to fall through whenever I make them...it's the only way to never be disappointed. But expecting failure and assuming friendships are always going to end isn't a philosophy that he should have, so I refrained from stating my true opinion. Instead, I told him that you never know that people like you because we [people] don't go around telling people that they're fun to be with. People just don't really give compliments like that; you usually only know when someone really doesn't like you. I tried to explain that he wasn't uninvited from a party, but people, especially in high school, don't invite each person personally. It's generally a word of mouth kind of thing, and people tend to assume that you will come even if they don't tell you. That was my experience because when I frequently wouldn't show up they would ask me why I wasn't there, even if I would have just stood there quietly brooding the whole time...but that's why my mom refers to me as a "window treatment." I've been reduced to something nice to look at as supposed to actually converse with...lovely.
Anyway, I just wish he didn't have to go through these things. I used to, and it hardened me into a jaded, antisocial, acquaintance only individual, which is probably not the way to go through life. I want him to stay happy, carefree, and most importantly, the little brother I know. I've already lost my innocence; does he have to, too?