Wow, it's been a while since I last posted, and I can attribute the reason for that to be the enormous schoolwork that has been swamping me already...and yes, I've only had one week of classes. This is going to be a long quarter, but I graduate after it.
I have to say, though, that I prefer to be ridiculously busy because it keeps my mind on other things and helps me not to eat. I know that's terrible, but I actually forget to eat when I have so much to do. And when I'm running from one place to another, I just continuously fill myself up with coffee for energy or a red bull. I refuse to eat when I'm on the go, and I refuse to consume a meal quickly so if I have a time limit then I just don't eat.
Unfortunately I binged and purged yesterday and put some fresh marks on my left arm; that's what I did instead of going out on a Saturday night. I've been feeling kind of down lately with regards to my personal life. I'm eager to graduate, and I'm proud that I'm doing so early. But when I think about my "friends" and (non existent) love life, I feel depressed. I can't open up to people, hence I can't really have good friends. I just wonder sometimes if maybe I do have a purpose in this world and what it could be. Sometimes I imagine myself doing great things because, let's be honest, life can change dramatically in no time...wish I had a crystal ball.
I think it´s good not knowing what´s going to happen
ReplyDeleteConfrats for almoust finishing college!
Try to do smt to cheer you up
xx
i wish i were graduating soon. 1.5 years left. :(
ReplyDeleteim sorry your saturday night was so bad... i think thats what i did on friday, minus the purging. :P
i hate thinking about the future because i always get so depressed.
stay lovely, my dear, and good luck with school! <3
my sister found my blog. I had to delete it... :\
ReplyDeletemy whole year completely gone. i feel so empty now without it. She is also making me go to counseling.
I still don't have a phone. Well I am using my moms but it isn't a full keyboard, and it sucks to text on.
I will text you right when I get a new one which will be when my mom gets her next paycheck. Which is the begging of February. Stay strong <3 i love you.
p.s. in response to your post, I wish I had a crystal ball too... cause sometimes I freakout about what my future is going to be.
I used to have a blog awhile ago but now I am on a journey to recovery, to better eating habits!! I would be great if we could support each other =)
ReplyDelete“Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe.”
♥ Bree