I must say, if anyone needs to stay awake for several days, they should just stop eating because a lack of food quickly yields insomnia. I've known this for a long time, but I just thought I'd mention it again anyway. Here I am, in the darkness of my room, trying to figure out ways to fall asleep and stay that way...and clearly failing.
Today (or technically yesterday since it's 2am), I had some strawberries, lettuce with fat free italian dressing, and a scoop of ice cream. I don't know my calorie count, but I was under 1000 cals. Normally I shoot for about 500 or less, but when I'm at my parents house I tend to binge so I've raised it slightly to prevent such a catastrophe. One of my new plans to keep myself occupied has been laying out at the pool because I can drink diet coke all day long and never eat when I'm in a swimsuit...never even tempted. I've always been that way, which was probably why the summer I was a lifeguard was hell. That was also the summer my eating disorder started. I would be on duty for 8 hours sometimes and never touch an ounce of food. It's a good thing no children started drowning because I'd probably have been too weak to save them. I remember that was also when my friends started noticing me getting skinnier (according to them), but I only remember feeling ridiculously fat even though I wasn't.
I'd also like to mention that finding a swimsuit the other day? Practically impossible. For one thing, most of them are already gone since it's so late in the season, but the other problem is that I have rather large boobs and a bubble butt. And of course, since those two items are the main things covered in a swimsuit, that makes it difficult to shop for one. Most of the bikinis were triangles or strapless, and I really needed a halter for the support. It took several hours before I was able to get one! It's decent looking, black and white polka dots, and the bottoms are slightly loose (which I like) so there's no muffin topness going on. If only my upper region would shrink again...scratch that, if only my entire body would shrink!!!!!