Okay, okay, after going through my increasingly disturbing posts of late, I decided that I should probably try to lighten the mood despite the raging thoughts in my mind at present. My mom called me this morning to tell me how I needed to be social because it's necessary to life, and I tried to make noises of affirmation even though I fail to see why friends are essential to living. Because they aren't.
BUT I'm going to write something more uplifting...like how I've lost some weight! I refuse to weigh myself for a while longer because then I won't be prone to bingeing. Also, I'm debating getting a new swimsuit form Target today. I only have two swimsuits (which I get is more than I need), but one of them is too small on top since my chest has gotten bigger over the past five years...plus the color is fading. I figure it's time for a new suit then, even if I might never wear it.
I still don't know what I'm doing for the holiday weekend, but I'e been watching a lot of Wimbledon. Can I just say that Rafael Nadal is soooo adorable? If you've never heard of him, google him. His little personality quirks though are just so friggin cute.
Anyway, I'm going to figure out how to occupy myself for the next few days until I can go back to work on Wednesday. I'm bummed they don't need my help until then because of the holiday since it was such a great way for me to distract myself. And since I'm no longer sleeping...well, that just adds even more hours to my already boring days...Geez, I'm supposed to be uplifting...