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I'm home for the weekend since I had nothing better to do over Valentine's Day weekend. Usually when I come home, I eat horribly and binge because I see it as a vacation almost. But I'm not letting that happen this time. I refuse to. My goal is to have lost three pounds by Monday since it'll have been about three days. I try to average a weight loss of one pound per day...obviously that will plateau but hasn't yet fortunately!

I've eaten some pineapple for breakfast and had some greek yogurt with blackberries for lunch. It's less than 250 calories, but sadly I don't know the exact number. It isn't a whole lot, I guess, but I feel disgusting anyway. When I've eaten, even if it isn't much, I still am reminding that I would weigh less if I hadn't eaten it at all. It's really frustrating, and I honestly don't know how much longer I'm going to be able to eat at all. I feel like I'm getting closer and closer to a permanent fast...at least until I binge (which obviously isn't ideal).

I had one more thing to mention...I'm Catholic, and Lent starts this coming Wednesday. Does anyone have any good ideas of things to give up? I've thought about chocolate, but it worries me that I'll end up bingeing the day before or as soon as Lent is over. And then I've thought about diet pop, which would be good because if I binged on it then it's still zero calories...but I drink it so much! And if I gave up chocolate, then one or two days of bingeing is probably still better with the >40 days without it, right? Help!